This video will share with you “What Anxiety Feels Like”
What it feels like what my days are like what my thoughts are like routine is like, while living with an anxiety disorder is my life? Ruined? Can I ever be normal? Will I ever be happy in this video? I’m gonna share what it’s like living with an anxiety disorder.
I am diagnosed officially diagnosed by a psychiatrist. I have a beautiful piece of paper that says: Scott suffers from GA day baby. Now he didn’t, write baby in the note, but hey I can label myself like this.
I don’t know for the sake of the video. Let’s, not get into that, but yeah. I suffer from anxiety and labeling up. So in this video I’m, going to describe what it’s like what it feels like and the the intention here is to maybe help you out.
Maybe you do suffer from anxiety, or maybe you know, someone or loved someone who struggles with anxiety and maybe he’s even diagnosed, and you’d like to understand them a little better and get a little closer to them, because we Know that hey everybody’s different in their diagnosis, everyone’s different, how they feel both anxiety and mental illness.
We can categorize and we can really check off quite a few symptoms that nearly everyone will experience with these disorders, especially an anxiety disorder. So I’m gonna just talk about what anxiety feels like and what it & #.
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That’s enough. Ok, I’ll start. I’ll start talking about sad stuff, so living with anxiety. It’s, not fun. It’s, not fun it. It’s, ruined relationships. It’s, it’s ruined you know social gatherings. It’s, it’s.
It’s completely, taken away the enjoyment of just being alone sometimes, but there’s. One thing I want to discuss and that’s. Uncertainty living with an anxiety disorder is oh. I got to turn that fan off.
Ah, ah, but I’m, so in focus um living with an anxiety disorder, you have to be content and be able to deal with this. This idea of in certainty this fact of uncertainty, because I don’t know when anxiety is going to hit me.
I don’t know when I’m going to have a panic attack. Yes, there are triggers that that are there, but the majority of the time I could literally just wake up and and it’s, like God, has a spotlight on me and the world has the spotlight and everyone’s watching, and I Have this pressure to perform? I have this this to-do list.
I things that I need to get done throughout the day, and that makes it worse and it’s. Just this pressure. You feel – and you know at times it’s debilitating for sure other times you have to fight through it, but you, don’t, get any enjoyment out of the day living with an anxiety disorder.
But if I frame it this way living or going through the day struggling with anxiety, symptoms, there’s, no enjoyment. Through that day, you’re just trying to get through the day, so you can finally hit the bed again and see what happens the next day and that’s very similar with depression as well.
It’s like my bed is, that is a safe space for me and when fighting through depression and anxiety, you you count down the seconds man you count down until you’re, going to be safe again and when you know you’ve been awake for, let’s, say 12 hours and and it works done, and you’re.
You’re. Finally, in bed again, I don’t know for me: it’s like the anxiety will calm down it’s worse in the mornings, but you almost dread getting up again because you don’t want to Deal with that anxiety again, you don’t want to keep ticking down the seconds and it’s, an exhausting experience and through those days and it’s, an exhausting existence, and you know people who have it.
It can be debilitating at times and years ago years ago, if I you know, I do my best to only compare myself with myself. So if I compare myself to five years ago, man have I come a long way with how I deal with anxiety and the biggest part is trust, and I trust myself to be able to deal with anxiety when it comes.
I trust my coping skills. I trust my social circle. You know, I trust myself and that’s, a big part. You trust that you’ll, be able to deal with the uncertainty. You trust yourself to be able to deal with that anxiety, but it wasn’t always the case and listen life is life it.
It requires you to be anxious at times. Right. Anxiety is a good thing, but a disorder is something else, and sometimes when there’s, nothing to be anxious about it’s just another day, but somehow everything is amplified.
Everything I said everything is in your face. You you’re, it’s like you’re on stage needing to perform, and everything is just bigger and bold and strong, and you just feel small and weak and overpowered that’s.
How it feels that’s, what it feels like to me so again living with anxiety. I know this video is all over the place, but living with an anxiety disorder. Again, isn’t fun, but it ‘ S taught me a lot about self-discipline and and how to how to really take care of myself in the right ways.
It’s taught me how to to deal with. You know the beautiful cbt circle of thoughts to feelings, to behaviors it’s, really forced me to meditate it’s. Forced me to eat healthier. It’s. Forced me to exercise on a regular it’s.
Forced me to do a lot of things that what they would anxiety and without this diagnosis I may have not – I probably wouldn’t – have been motivated to make myself better, because why would you improve yourself if there’s really no Need to people find that very difficult, and obviously I would too so.
The anxiety was kind of a Kickstarter for me to be like okay hold on what am I doing wrong, and what can I do better and living with anxiety? That is the constant question that I keep asking myself and that’s, exhausting too, because I’m, not to blame, but at times you always ask yourself.
Oh, I’m feeling anxious. Well, what did I do wrong, and what can I do better right now, you’re, always in that constant competition, and always in that, judging phase of yourself that it’s difficult to get over, that it is, and I struggle with That from time to time for sure for sure, so again it’s, not fun.
It’s, not fun, and if you can, if you know someone and love someone who who deals with anxiety, you know I’ve done. I’ve said this in videos before, but just know that it’s, not their fault. You know it a disorder if they’re feeling anxious, but it’s like man, you just had seven cups of coffee.
What do you expect right? Well, that’s, a that’s, a different scenario, but if they’re really struggling and they’ve been struggling for quite some time and have maybe been diagnosed. Don’t. Put that blame on them a it’s, an extremely difficult thing to deal with and to come to terms with to say I I have a disorder and you do everything that’s in your control and with me I do everything That’s in my control, but sometimes it’s, not enough.
It’s, not enough, and the anxiety is still there after the exercise after the meditation after the therapy it’s, all it sometimes just doesn’t go away, and you just have to sit there and, like you’re on a roller coaster, you’re strapped in and you just got ta ride it and you do your best to enjoy the ride.
I do my best to enjoy the ride. Sorry, I’m used to like giving. I’m, used to giving advice on these videos. I’m, not used to just talking about myself, so I do my best to to ride that rollercoaster enjoy the ride, but a lot of the time it’s.
Just like do your best to be mindful to notice the emotion to escape and detach yourself from these anxious thoughts, but sometimes it’s, pure hell and the heart’s. Beating and the sweats come in and you feel a helpless sense of panic and uncomfortableness and just lack of safety in the world and and it’s actually terrifying, especially with panic disorders.
I don’t, have panic attacks often, but panic disorders are Wow, that’s, another that’s. Another video and that’s, another range of symptoms for sure, so you know I could honestly go on about the symptoms and and what I feel, but maybe I’ll.
Do that? Okay, so living with an anxiety disorder is not fun. That’s. The key word here: it’s, not fun, and I told you that sometimes there’s triggers and actually let me tell you one trigger it’s. Change! No human really loves change.
We like routine. We like to know what’s ahead. We like to be able to predict the future because ok, I’m, going to wake up and then add this to do and this to do, and I can expect to see that person and be able to do this and be able to do That uncertainty and anxiety is that fear of the unknown it’s, it’s.
Not knowing and change really gets me. I remember working in the summers I would in university years ago. This was oh, my gosh. How many years ago said. Let’s. Call it seven years ago, then, the second year third year I’d, go home work for the summer and I’d, come back to campus in the fall in September.
So I’d. Leave around April that was the last exam get in a nice solid work routine. I’d, worked at golf courses and worked at actually back in the day best buy, and then this factory, where I made these roof antennas, anyways long story.
But I’d, go back to campus after those four months, and I’d, be out for a week now it may have been the exact same house same town. I would be in four for six months. Right same same professors, sometimes same group of friends, but you don’t, see some of these people for four months.
You detach yourself from that routine. I come back. I’m out for four months or sorry. Four months I’m out for a week and, and that was debilitating that change and even when I moved into this condo a few years ago, I was out for a few weeks for sure just waking up just the anxiety, my baseline, the anxiety Spikes, but it stays for weeks at a time and again you do everything you can, but it’s.
It’s, a gross feeling. It’s, a dirty feeling, and it’s, not fun to deal with it’s. Not it’s, an extra thing. You have to deal with the of work. You have your family, you have your relationships and it’s.
Just that extra thing. On top that you always are mindful of, and it’s, sometimes a lot it’s. You know what a lot of time is in the back your mind. Being like okay, I’m going out. You know what, if this happens, all right am I prepared.
If I get anxious you know, do I have an exit strategy, or am I prepared to deal with it in the moment? Do i people, I can trust. Do I trust myself in that moment? Is the environment safe? It can be debilitating just because it’s, always in the back your mind and it’s.
This constant thought process and cyclical thinking that goes on and on and on, but I think change is a trigger for me. Big change, big change, so that’s when it gets debilitating. But honestly there are way more good days than not for me, living with anxiety is not as debilitating and not as bad as it used to be.
That is for sure. That is for sure, and have a lot of people to thank for that, including all of you watching. I have a lot of people that thing and including all the patrons who support this channel, and this is almost a therapy, for me, too, is discussing this with everyone because, as you know, it’s.
An honest conversation about mental health or honest dialogue about mental health and it’s, fearless expression. So I’m fearless in this, and it feels good to just be open and to share and anxiety it’s.
Like you ask anyone in the world hey, you ever felt anxious, of course, of course, and the number of diagnosed or people being diagnosed with generalized anxiety, disorder and social anxiety. The trend line is like this man.
It’s, not going away and it’s. Getting a lot worse and people need help, but the conversation is there. You can talk to anyone about this. Now I’m, not scared to tell anyone that I have clinical depression and generalized anxiety disorder, not a big deal, not in the slightest.
So you know, if that motivates you at all, to see that I don’t, give a you know, go for it and tell the world upload a video see what happens you’ll, most likely get support from a lot of people. Just like I have so I have you to thank everyone watching, but finally and lastly, I’m gonna say this living with anxiety, isn’t fun, but within the last the last five years for me have just you know.
You take two steps forward, one step back, but I’ve, just been getting better and better and better and it’s, not necessarily that the anxiety goes away. It does lessen a bit and it has, but it’s. Not like it’s ever going to go away, mental health is defined with how you deal with the challenge and how how you embrace the challenge that comes in your life and are you able to deal with that? Do you have the capacity to deal with challenges that will that you will face in life that’s? Mental health and my mental health just gets better and better because I am more and more ready to deal with challenges that come up, and I’m, showing anxiety who’s really boss, so stay strong.
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